Sometimes when things
go black outside
I sit
and wonder
Why…..
Why do I feel so alone
down deep inside
Why am I so afraid
to reach out
and touch
to be touched
I want so badly
to experience
all that could be
But I can’t
I reach out
and the pain
is physical
My confusion
is so paralyzing
All I really want
is to be held
but I can’t
seem to form
the words
to express
what is going on inside me
So….
I sit……..
Silent
With my fear and confusion
and everything I feel
Flashing in my eyes
But undetected.