Archive for November, 1997
If I loved you less
it would not tear
at me so to know that you hurt
If I loved you less
may be I could do what you want
maybe I could walk away
and leave you to grieve alone.
If I loved you less
you would not move through me
like a knife
I would know where
I began and you ended
If I loved you less
Perhaps I could save us both.
29 times in 29 ways
I have tried to reach you
29 times in 29 ways
I tried to break
through the walls that separate us
Was it 4 too few?
Was it 5 too many?
Do I continue to stand outside
pounding my fists till they are bloody?
Do I turn and walk away and
prove that you were right all along
that I would leave you eventually?
Do I wait patiently
Make no move towards you
Make no move away
In hopes that some day
some year
Some how
Some way
you will open your eyes
as well as your heart
and really see me
See that I am still here.
How many times must we play this game
How many times must we run from each other
From ourselves
From the truths that we do not wish to face
29 times in 29 ways
We failed ourselves
We failed each other
You for not giving in
Me for not letting go.
Please don’t take this battered heart
not unless you intended to keep it
It can not take the careless use of yet another
Please don’t look at me
not with the soft eyes of a lover
not unless you are sure
I can not take another betrayal
Please don’t touch me
with your words so tender
not unless you fear to say them
Love comes easily as a lie
but falters in the throat when believed in the heart.
