You still make me lose my train of thought when you smile like that at me.
You still make my pulse race and take my breath away when you touch me like that.
You still make me blush and sigh that way when I think of you unexpectedly.
You still make cry when you leave like that.
You still break my heart when you lie like that.
It still makes me sad that you still make me anything.

Hate
so strong
my hands shake
my stomach burns

Hate
so all consuming
I lived my life
in the shadow of its form

Hate
Poisoning
Seeping into
my blood
flesh
bone

Hate
effecting only
the innocent
not the guilty

Forgiveness
so impossible
so implausible

Forgiveness
not earned
nor deserved

Forgiveness
Salvation
not for the violator
but the violated

I feel you
moving
separate
yet a part of
all that I am

Connected
by a fallacy
bound
by uncertainty

Too afraid
to move forward
to break
the bond
that still draws us together

Too stubborn
to face the
truth

What I feel
is
a shadow
a ghost
a memory

Part of what I was
not who
I am

Sacred Heart
Sheltered
Buried
Beats Stronger
Louder
Tell-Tale Heart
The sound deafening
Waking the long dead soul